hello there!

how is everyone?i am fine i guess...i know i owe alot of update..but i am lazy..haha...shall make it short i guess! haha...

Hello Everyone! (:

i don't understand why some children are so IGNORANT of their parent's feeling...seriously..u are so ignorant of your other's feeling and care about other people mother. I serious dun understand you...seriously.. u made me speechless sometime not that you are one great man but you are one f-ing irritating man...your mom even apologize to you but you just replied by saying "Mmm"..wth was that? what you are trying to prove here? your mom been living with me like 10 years and my mom put up with her A LOT... no matter what she done she is your mother, the one that gave birth to you... you may have a bad experience whatsoever but no matter what she is your mother. during hari raya you dun even visit her? so you have a new family..whatever lah...it irritates me... no one can stop you but yourself. it bugs me so much because you are bringing up the past that your spouse are always the one been bringing your mom to the hospital and your spouse are the one cooking for her... what about my mom and me and my family? we let her go to the hospital herself?when she is sick we asked her to go hospital herself?when she has an appointment with doctor we let her go by herself?and we let her starve? think lah... use your brain and think.. how i wish that i can give you a piece of my mind. seriously...and oh yeah you were saying that i am big sized who would want me?did i asked your money to feed me? did i? gosh! i may sound heartless here but this is what i feel. this is what i think you should realize before she is gone. everyone will have leave this world.you brought up all the unfairness that happen to you...why don't my family brought up the past too? the reason behind it because we are just human being that will make mistake.. because we know that sincerity matter than just pretense...if one day, you mention about my body weight or whatsoever, believe me i will just give you piece of my mind. i am happy with myself and i don't bother anyone.

Hello Everyone,

hope all of you are fine (:

so shall update... i was reading my old post...from Poly Year 1 till now...haha...how much I grew by just reading the post itself..how much i found myself through life...haha...cool isn't it...whenever we are at that point of time, we will not take seriously that things can have an effect on us... i always like that...reading all the entry i had regarding my CCA...i realize that i really enjoyed it because seeing smiles from the person i help make me feel warmth..even the BDD made me feel that sometime people can touched us in a way or another.. i love that feeling... the thought of it I love/enjoy helping others..but i dunnoe why i lost all the motivation to do that again..maybe because i am part of the planning....i guess i hate planning things...i just like to see people planning not getting involve in it..can i just give up my position and be a normal member? can i? like give up all of this? i feel irritated and sad at the same time... Veni always told me why must i give up now just because of some people, she added that I enjoyed helping so dun stop doing it. Yeah, I love helping and seeing smile on their faces make me feel that I have done smth... can i just leave my position now and help when i am needed?I dun really care of the position I hold in my CCA because it is just a position.GOSH! hate it when I want to give up something...oh yeah Veni and I had a chat back then.... "You have a choice to jump down or look at the beautiful view when you are standing at the edge of the cliff" this was what Veni said...I chose to look at the beautiful view because something is holding me down to the ground... (:

nice isn't it? haha... hope I will enjoy what I do(: that is helping others. (:

Shall stop talking about this... (: Shall watch my K-Drama (:

Back

Hello Everyone!

Long time never blog...So how is everyone...?And Selamat Hari Raya!! I like dunnoe what to update lah...errmmmm...let me think?i still dunnoe...oh yeah did I tell you that i am liking B2ST! haha....a few weeks ago I everyday watch their video at Youtube...haha...obsessed...shall use the word obsess!hahaha...I like YoSeob!gah!!he is cute and has a very soothing voice to listen too....haha....oh yeah!! I have a new niece!Nur Alisha Bte Muhammad Razid...so shall end here...

YoSeob

Hello readers! How are all of you? Hope everyone fine! Blissful with smile! What the hell am I talking about?I do not wish to update a very emo entry but I just can't help it. Yesterday while I was writing notes for OOAD modules, I was looking at my table. I was glancing at the picture that was taken 9 years ago. The picture of my mom,my late father and me. The three of us were hugging and smiling. That day was Hari Raya. I glanced at my late father's picture for a few seconds. Suddenly, I was overwhelmed with my own feeling. I always missed his laughter and jokes.Whenever someone ask about, " Your father work as what?" , I will stop and think. What should I say? I reluctantly said that he passed away. I felt sad that I have to said that. Yes I know I shall not be stupid and selfish! In this entire whole world not only me without a father. I was considered lucky enough to know my father. I still remember my first raya without my father, back in 2006. When I heard the "takbir" , I cried unknowingly. Tears rolled down my cheeks. I could not stop crying.It was always my father who make me angry and happy at the same time. He dotes on me without me realizing.Never dd I aspect to lose my father. Once, my mum said that my late father has this worry which was whether will he get to see me grow up to be a woman. When she mention that I felt sad.But I know he is with me right now. He is always with me because I hold his memories in my heart all along. I just wish that I could hug him and kiss him right now. I was not a good daughter.

I guess I should stop. I am sorry. Well I shall smile more now (:

100 Truth!

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage: Ice Tea
2. Last phone call: Mummy
3. Last text message: Nasyitha
4. Last song you listened to: Beast-Bad girl
5. Last time you cried: Not Sure....

Where question 6 go sia?

HAVE YOU EVER:
7. Been cheated on: Nope.
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: No one.
9. Lost someone special: Yes. :(
10. Been depressed: duhhhh....
11. Been drunk and threw up: DRUNK? NO LAH!!

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. Red
13. Green
14. Light Purple

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2010)
15. Made a new friend: OF COURSE!!!
16. Fallen out of love: No...
17. Laughed until you cried: duhhhh....of course.....(:
18. Met someone who changed you: errmmm...kind of....
19. Found out who your true friends were: yeah....i think...
20. Found out someone was talking about you:errrmmmm....dunnoe...

Question 21 and 22 leh?

23. How many kids do you want to have: maybe 3...
24. Do you have any pets: nope....
25. Do you want to change your name: no...I love my name... (:
26. What did you do for your last birthday: errrmmm...it was fasting month...oh yeah...went out with sulaiman and yong en to Geylang...haha
27. What time did you wake up today: errmmm....12pm...
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: Another Cinderella Story....
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: errrmmmm....new handphone?hahaha....
30. Last time you saw your Mother:Just now....came to my room to take her alarm clock...haha
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: I wish that I am working right now...hahaha..i a bit contented now...
32. What are you listening to right now: Nothing
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Tom? nope...haha
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: Nothing....
35. Most visited webpage: Facebook.
36. What's your real name: Nur Salina Bte Missary
37. Nicknames: Salina, Mok,Sally
38. Relationship Status: Single and Happy...
39. Zodiac sign: Virgo
40. Gender: Female
41. Elementary:Keming Primary Sch
42. Middle School?: Hillgrove Sec
43. High school/college?: Nanyang Poly
44. Hair colour: Black
45. Long or short: Short
46. Height: 169...
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: Yeah....haha...eye candy i shall say..haha...oh yeah...Kim Bum & Yo Seop!!!!haha
48: What do you like about yourself?: I like that I can smile and make jokes I shall say even it is lame..haha
49. Piercings: Ear...
50. Tattoos:NO WAY!!!
51. Righty or lefty: RIGHTY!!

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: Nope
53. First piercing: dun dare...haha
54. First best friend: Nur Adilah Bte Aziz
55. First sport you joined: Netball in primary school
56. First vacation: Tanjong Pinang,Indonesia

Missing question 57 also -_-

58. First pair of trainers: Heh? what that?
59. Eating: eating? errm...keropok?
60. Drinking: Plain Water...
61. I'm about to: errm....dunnoe..haha
62. Listening to:Nothing....ahaha
63. Waiting on: waiting for??not sure...haha

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?: duhhhh.....yes!!!! (: (:
65. Get Married?: of course....let fate decide when..haha
66. Career?: Nursing?or IT Field? or Teacher? hahaha....

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: Eyes
68. Hugs or kisses: Hugs
69. Shorter or taller: Taller
70. Older or Younger: Older
71. Romantic or spontaneous: Spontaneous
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: errrrmmmm.....Both?
73. Sensitive or loud: of course both...ahaha
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship...hee...^^
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: Both...hahaha....

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: Nope
77. Drank hard liquor: no lah....
78. Lost glasses/contacts: never worn both....
79. Sex on first date: first wedding night lah dey!
80. Broken someone's heart:errmmm....love wise no!

Question 81 & 82 gone?

82. Been arrested: Arrested?Dun think so....
83. Turned someone down: Nope...
84. Cried when someone died: duuuuhhhh....sad u know....
85. Fallen for a friend?: yeah... (:

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: Yeah....kind of...not always....
87. Miracles: yup...there can be miracle when u believe...haha
88. Love at first sight: ALOT!!! hahaha....
89. Heaven: yeah... Must earn it...(:
90. Santa Claus: dunnoe...hahaha
91. Kiss on the first date: errm...no i guess.....
92. Angels: YUP!!! hahaha
93. God: YES!! Believe in ALLAH...

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time:How to have more when i dun have one myself..haha
95. Did you sing today?:ermm...yeah! NDP song!hahahah....
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: ermm...no....
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: maybe i can visit my late father for the last time... :(
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: last year? maybe dun go to the subcom interview..hahah
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: Kind of!
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: DUH!hahahaha....

Hey Everyone...Hope everyone doing fine... dropped by m class mate's blog...and they are updating..so here am i updating...done with project! woohoo!! so glad! I love it sia! haha...the past few weeks was great..OOAD Project taught me to cooperate with your group's member...that is IMPORTANT! even you do fights and have arguments, make an effort to apologize...sometime you must take the first step... and this project taught me that in life not all things goes your way..haha.. i was so relieved when we were done with it.. i am so relieved i tell u..last week we spent most of time in school..like 9am - 9pm..12 hours.. we we doing project.. last friday we did stayed.. i saw my eye-candy ^.^ dream on salina! haha... Ramadhan is nearing...like next week... Fast sia! well i love fasting month... (: it teach me to self-control on a lot of things... (: We are coming soon to the end of the Semester... whoa! fast fast! haha.. Well well... I shall stop blabbering and chillax! (: (:

Short Getaway Trip

Hello everyone,
Currently I at desaru chalet..just watched the world cup ..Argentina vs Germany..well I don't support any team ..I just support which score good..so as all the football fan shld know Germany won ..4-0..haha..I was having fun..see how they work as a team and all..what I've learn from the game is to work ad a team and NEVER stingy to share the glory..what I've seen and infer that Argentina player is always wanting to keep the ball to themselves and not share..remind me of floorball team back in secondary school days..hahaha...we always get tense if the ball is with us and decide not to share..hahaha..
Let's don't talk about world cup.. Desaru is our second destination..malacca is our first destination..we went to the place where they sell alot of souvinier and stuff..I bought one for myself..haha...well my mom is not here.she is at Singapore ..she can't join us as she had to work.her boss is ill..so she have to work..sad lah..but what can we do..hope she is well..I called her to tell where and what we doing..haha.. Well I waiting for 2am as my bros are going to fish..I want to follow..don't want to sleep..haha...I bought the back I wanted long ago..it was cheap..haha..RM 18 only mah..haha..tempted to buy two..but buy so much for what..haha...shall end here then..hope all are well.. :)

Hello

I am blogging using my iTouch..to see whether it works..well last Thursday and Friday I had my practical for driving..Thursday was was not bad..Friday was a bit tiring..I go around the circuit correcting and improving..hahah..my right leg was tired..haha..I hope I pass all the lesson a.s.a.p..so I can drive..hahaha...
Ooooohhhhh...school starting soon...sem 1 term 2 ..hahaha... I hope I will ace all my subject ...I kept saying how I hope I can be in the director list...hahaha...well dream on Salina...that's all :)

time check now is 210 am... was watching a movie at youtube...Surfing the net for movies to be watched.haha... so watched the movie, Raise Your Voice leading actress is Hillary Duff. the Final song was so touching and meaningful. Very meaning. It was called Somebody Watching Over me. here the link:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=USH3F4JjkBs

go watch it...it was so touching and meaningful...den after watching that movie , search for old song that once i love.

Only Hope by Mandy Moore. It was a nice song too..haha...late night watching videos and listening song are very relaxing I shall say..

Went to the HCA Hospice Center yesterday with the CCA. We played 2 games and a sing-a-long session. Though I do not really interact with any of the patients but seeing their smiles and laughter, made my day. They were so enthusiastic of playing the games.How simple the game is , the played with much enthusiasm. Ms Germaine from the HCA gave us a talk during the CSC orientation. How the video she showed made me teared up. Terminally ill and doctor said that you have less than a year to live. that's a big blow to whoever it is. One year to live. I guess no one hard is that strong to take that kind of blow. But I guess with centre such as HCA Hospice Centre they will be living their life to the fullest. If it were me that was diagnosed and told that left 1 year to live , I will be in an emo state. I will cry and cry but life has a sunny side when it stop raining. We never know the future that hold for us. enough talk about life and their mystery.

(:

I Love you Dad, Missary!(:

do you ever feel that your circle of friends are fighting among each other? do you ever feel fucked up? do you ever feel that you are not doing anything to help? do you ever feel that you may not be important in their life as they are in your life? do you ever feels that you are always in a middle of something because you made yourself into? do you ever feel that you are hopeless? do you? Currently that what I am feeling right now.. I guess I should just forget of helping and make myself happy.. I know I hate seeing fights and quarrel but who am I? I always try to stop fights getting worst but I am just a human. Eventually they have to make a choice.. Laughter is the tools I hide my sadness and frustration. But when laughter doesn't work anymore for such situation , I will make myself entertained to make me laugh. I hate it so much what I am feeling right now. Quotes makes me realize how meaningful a life can be with words. I guess I should choose the quiet side of me from now . Maybe.But I am still Crazyalwaes. (:

I have learn one thing: When 2 are fire, the fire gets bigger. (:

(:

Analyze the picture...

What do you see?

You see raining side and a colorful side...

Whenever there is rain, people sigh...

Because they have plan...

But they do not know...

Sometime when it is raining and we are made to change plan...

It will be a good thing...

Sometime plan changed , and we do something new and we learn from there...

I like rain...

Rain calms the Earth...

Though sometime it creates more heat...(:

Example when someone is super angry...

Sometime words can make them calm down...

Like Fire, can be put off by water...

Though I sound a naive..

But I guess Life is full of mystery ..

Mystery that we will find out...

Life seems hard at times

Life seems happy at time..

Life seems sucky at time..

Life seems perfect at time...

Life is full of mixture...

Mixture of many things and feeling...

No one life is full of happiness...

No one life is full of sadness...

Everyone life is mixture of both I believe...

I am actually blabbering sia..Just type what in my mind now..haha... (:

DIT 0901

Did I ever mention that I love my DIT0901 classmate?!

I love them so much...They are always there cheering me up and making my day ... They love make to LAME jokes I tell you..haha...super lame jokes that make me laugh like mad woman..haha... Yesterday, Veni was wearing all black and we end class quite late...So this Shou Xian and Jansen was being a bit racist...They started saying, " Hey where's Veni?" I was like stunned...Veni was right beside me...haha...then Mr Luqman and his super-funny-irritating face was like " Veni?! Veni?!" haha...all of us laughed...Then that Veni really went missing...Shou Xian realised it..he was like " Hey where's Veni? This time real sia. She is not with us." Veni was hiding...haha... See how super-lame my classmate can be...No matter how lame they are, they still can make me laugh..haha.. Or maybe our level of humor is low...haha... IT0901 , I love you so much(:

Sometime some people get to my nerves...haha...but the rest they are very nice people (:

Till here then(: Bye(:

Random Post!(:

hey hey everyone!

in my mind there are many things i wanted to update...but i just don't know where to start or should i talk about it... well whenever i feel alone , it make me think of some thing...i am not alone...there are always family and friends behind you to help you out and God are there too... but no human can run from that feeling... sometime i chose a silent mode because i just lazy to be involve...if i say i scared history may repeat..i hate the feeling when i cant do anything to help out my friends out... but i am not a hero..how i wish i am..haha...many things happen in school...haha...new couple..(: love is in the air..haha... reading someone's blog seems to be stalking them but .... ouh forget it... in primary school i was always tease being the biggest or fattest in class or whatever shit...come to secondary school it lessen ...polytechnic i am sure there are people out there to tease me..well i always close my eyes and shut my ears... i shut them off because i am kind of immune to it... sometime things in life you cant make it perfect... if everyone is standard, this world is boring... mundane... trust me i sometime takes certain things seriously even i may not seem like... i am tired of bringing up irritating things.. sometime i am sad but just that i do not show it... i love to joke around...because it make me forget that i a bit different from the rest... being able to type this thing here i am glad i am salina... i love myself as i am.. I may not be perfect but no one is perfect... if everybody is born perfect , people wont make mistake and wont learn from it... being able to find GOOD friends , make me feel blessed... Thank you God for who I am. I sound so emo sia! gosh! sorry but this is what i feel like typing... (:

Pens

Veni gave me a name...Salina The Penholics... haha...It is not found in the dictionary...I agree with her..I love to buy pens even I have alot..haha...My mum will like " Ehk, why u keep buying pens?".. I will just smile...haha..I am a pen-buyer...

Apart from that...I owe updates...Well I just lazy to update..So the past week, it was a bit hectic because of many things...Many things happen..haha...till then...Bye(:

Happy Mother's Day

I LOVE MY MOTHER,ZAINAH BTE BASRI (:

Hello

Hello everyone!it is only week 3 and i have a lot of thing to do...here and there...haiyo! weekends is the only day I will slack around with my family...I hope I will regain the strength to continue my daily routine...Going to school can be a drag to me BUT because of my friends and my goal to do well I wake up and go to school...Last week on Wednesday , I almost fainted in MRT. Yeah I am serious...That day I was so tired because of Blood Donation Drive as I was the day I/C... I donated blood in the morning (: Saved 3 lives..haha..back to my story... I only eat lunch which I don't finish..On the train, I didn't manage to find a seat. So I stood... And when the train going towards yew tee, it delayed. Then I start to feel my head like spinning... My vision was like blurr.. I closed my eyes.. without I knowing I fell on a Bangla(>.<") He shouted "oi"... I realised that I was fainting...Lucky got 3 nice ladies help me out. They let me have a seat and gave me medicated oil...I closed my eye and everything was ok...I felt blessed because the ladies help me. Reaching Jurong East I was a bit better , but the lady asked " Are you ok already?" I said yes... so I alighted and took cab home...It was a scary experience...I learn one thing Singaporean may be KIASU but they have good-heart...(: (:

That was last week..haha...(:

Now I always ensure that I eat something ..haha...well I am always eating..haha..My room is at a messed now! haha...always in a mess...I guess I shall stop here...

Blabbering

Yo everyone! what shall i blogged about? haha...I have no idea what i shall blogged about..what the agenda? haha...well i guess i shall do some random post like i always do lah..haa...sometime went to meet someone from somewhere you learnt many thing...things you stereotype all the while will be changed after knowing the truth... school started...it was not bad afterall...i did survived..haha..i must used the fullest of the curriculum time..haha...well last week i have been mad all the while..because of one thing..cca...! gosh! seriously! i hate it lah...am i going to give up halfway? am i? i have no idea...i hate the idea when i keep telling myself that i did more than you...everyone in the committee start saying that already...gah! hate it hate it hate it! you did more from others? well i can also say that i did more than you! i keep planning for the LSC every wednesday...I did more!...seriously sia! hais! hate it!EXCO drama!haha... one fine day when i can't stand anymore i shall just walk off and let them say what the fuck they want! it is getting into my nerves liao! seriously! bit by bit they are getting on my nerves....if i were to be an angry Salina back then , I will be on other ppl's nerves now! Ok let's stop talking of unhappy things!

what can i talk?!haha...i just i talked about something already..haha...well happy things?? ermm....where to start? haha...shall stop for now!(:

long time since i used my webcam..haha...so yesterday webcam with Veni...to show her the necklace we bought together..haha...here's the picture we took yesterday...tmr is the start of a brand new semester for me and all the polytechnic student... cannot believe that year 1 has passed. all those bittersweet memories with my classmate and the NYP.haha.. the first time we met each other and till now...haha...great memories with them and i will keep continuing to store whole lot of memories with them..haha..times when we were at orientation and and playing and involving in the games...it was super fun..haha...true color not out yet by then but has time passed we get to see real color..hahaha..reading the old post was super cute...haha...well let open a new chapter in NYP life..haha...till then(:

FMO

Hello everyone! FMO just finished today..FMO( FreshMen Orientation ) ... I was down to school since last week for OGL(Orientation Group Leader)... Firstly, I just want to say it was The BOMB! The OGL were crazy...haha...OGL bomb to OGL bomb..haha...we were like chanting sia...First day was on Wednesday...I was allocated to DIT 1002... when I first met them they were like zombies..haha..all quiet! Then I was thinking..Cannot make it liao...haha...Gone Case! BUT they surprised me! They get along... The OGL that consist of Aisah(IT0903), Ben(IT0904) , Angelin(IT0905), GuoJun (Not sure)..I make myself hyper..I drank Red Bull 2 day straight...I don't want to be like zombies..haha..so drank and I hype up! By Day 1 I lose almost of 50% of my voice..Thanks to all the bombing at Atrium.. All the OGL was so hype up but the freshie was like low spirit..We OGL around 100 plus shout louder than freshie..haha... Lucky they were hype by Day 2..I was in the Finale Cast. Acting as sub-cast only. I act as Coach...haha.. The FMO was so awesome that I dunnoe where to start...haha.. I guess I shall just say that : FMO was AWESOME! haha....

Back Again!

Seriously I am a bit craze over Boys Over Flower though the drama was so long ago..haha...gosh! haha...it make me smile in my worst day...it made me smile...gosh! salina stop it! haha...I do not want to admit that I am obsessed! haha... scary sia! Korean stuff are quite addictive i shall say! haha... now I know! haha...man! I must control myself! hee...I cant deny that the actor are so cute sia! whoa whoa! the smile...wth! salina stop it! putting aside all the korean stuff..haha...

people are blogging about love well here I am thinking of a fantasy..haha...smiling is a good medicine....it calms you down...haha....that's why I learn I guess...haha...Smiling (: a lot of stuff are making me smiling... family, friends , drama ... I should blogged what I've been doing for passed dunnoehowmanyweek...haha... putting aside the sadness...haha... ok let's update about my result..haha.... well I manage to pass every module... :D I've improved :) Though it was not high but I've improved. Thanks to all my classmate who help me through Sem 2... I found my motivation... Motivation for me to move forward and stop aiming for just passed...(: i wont put high aims because I know when I am not able to aim it I will be sad...like GCE O level... I realize...when you are SO focus on one thing you will shut down the second path that you may have to take...like me... I was so focus and end up not thinking the back up plan..haha...dun dwell on it! (: So I will try my best and achieved it!(:

There are a lot for me to update about...but I am just plain lazy to type and talk about it because it will make me mad,sad,angry,frustrated & whole lot of feeling playing through my heart... So why must I absorb the negative and throw away the positive. Why am I starting to sound emo again?haha...(:

Missing You

I miss you Dad! How I wish I can see you? How I wish that I can lie to myself that you were there to be with mum? I have a lot of wishes that may not come true. One thing I wish for is that how I wish I visit you for the last time... It's been 4 years going on with life without you. A lot has change. People around me, the environment, friends... I will still have tears when people talks about you..I have tears when people were saying jokes from you that made them laugh . I have tears when come to think about you. Tears are always with me. But there can be many tears. Tears of joy.Tears because I am proud to be called your daughter. Tears of sadness. You worry most about me. You were strict. Because of your strictness, I am what I am now. The regret in me will always be with me. ALWAYS! Sometime in life, I need a good laugh and a good cry.

Movie

Hello everyone...is this blog grown spider web?haha..well i am sorry for not updating...cause of plain laziness..haha..well , today went out with Adilah to catch movie..not one but two movie.. according to plan, we are going to watch Alice In wonderland and Dear John...Alice in Wonderland still up but sadly Dear John is out...bummer! dang! really sad...didn't expect it to be out so fast..so we substitute it with Remember Me which was recommended by Sulaiman. We wanted to watch A.I.W first..but Ms Adilah was late..so we decided to watch Remember Me first...I watched the trailer and it wasn't attractive and I have an impression it's going to be a movie that I will fall asleep...but I was wrong...the plot and the story line was so awesome...seriously.. The overall movie is about LOVE ,BOND & LIFE.. Talk about love... Love between a girl whom father is a police and a boy who met the father's girl in fighting scenario... Love between a brothers... Love between brother and sister.... Love between friends... Bond? Bond with the family....Bond with sibling... Bond with parent... Life? How a perfect little girl has a history...? Having her mum to die in front of her.. How a rowdy guy with all the knowledge that has a soft spot when come to his sister?The ending of the story was not as I had expected... The ending made me shed my tears...I cried... Because I can feel the lost when someone passed away... It was remarkable a nice story...gah! Alice In Wonderland was not a bad movie...I can say worth watching movie... Though I almost fell asleep...But it was a nice movie... How imagination can make a great movie..? Cool is it? Well today was a movie day for me! haha...cool!! We should do this again!haha... Till here people!

Random!

My exams are over!!Woohoo!! Now just need to think of result! I did my utmost best! So put aside the exam...So after exam, my classmate and I went to East Coast Park. We took bus from AMK...And I tell you the bus ride was SUPER LONG...butt cramp!then Mr Safi made us walked from dunnoe where to ECP Mac ... was super hot and tiring...swear some of us want to punch him..haha...well we reached the destination...rent bicycle...The guys Safi,Jansen,Shou Xian & Jun Wei cycled until Changi...haha...while the girls just sit and play card and talking and did some cycling...so the three hour rent of the bicycle was up...and from far I can see something red on SX's knee..And he is injured....GOSH! seriously he was injured, his knee & his elbow.He hit a canal...lucky nothing more serious happen... then Jansen told us that he almost kenna hit by car...wah wah! how dangerous... If I were to see them flew from the bicycle or almost kenna hit, I tell you I will shout like hell...Next time if have any outing, someone must bring First Aid Kit! haha.... while waiting, we laughed about some lame joke...haha...talking about what will happen if someone knocked their head...seriously it will be more scary...lucky everyone were ok though SX was injured, he was ok...dangerous...haha....we have this outing more & more ... great memories will be in my heart and mind...haha...ok up till now people! see ya!!

Mom

Today I went to Botanical Garden with my mum...It is a trip organised by MKAC..well what I did was walk around and read book...haha..I was like thinking so the drama sia..den what I imagined was I am waiting for my prince charming..haha...it was just so quiet and very calming...so after almost about an hour , my mum called said the thing going to end so I went there...They were doing this expression your love to your loved one...haha...some from couple and children to parent and parent to children...haha... got one parent to children was SO TOUCHING i tell you...and as u guessed i cried... :( it was so touching...i dun want to elaborate on expression because i forgot..haha... if i were to stay there , i will also write for my mother... i know she will not read this blog...but this is how i felt...here goes...

Dear Mom,

I am glad that I have you as my mother. Never did i regret to have you as my mother even though you are sick..I still remember when I was in Primary 4 , you were diagnosed with Kidney failure and I cried. It was because at that moment I thought I am going to lose you forever... But nevertheless, you are here. You are strong...I still remember one of our family member said that you are going to die. How I wish I can just punch the person in the face. Seeing you go through the hardships, dialysis after dialysis and operation after operation... I am so sad but I told myself at that moment I must be strong for you. You were as strong as the Great Wall of China...Never did I see you cry or saying that you want to give up your life.. In 2006, when Father passed away, I was so upset. You did cried so hard.And after that moment I never see you cry. You were strong. Now, I only have you and brothers. You lift me up when I am so down. When I was scolded by brothers, you were there and console me even it was by words it was by the action. You work and never did you say that you blamed anyone. You always said never do bad things to others even though they did bad to us. Though I never say I Love You that often , but I love you very much... Thank you mum for being the candle in my darkest days.

Sincerely,

Salina

That will be my expression. haha...

i keep thinking what if one day, my world turn upside down...upside down meaning that...i become thin & i come from a rich family....well i know is so not real..haha...seriously...what if that happen?will i still be the same Salina as now and will my friends be like what I have now?will my family be the same? more happy or worse? when i see teenager who get what they want and are popular among people, it make me think what if their world is turned upside down? haha...well I am grateful with what I have.. There are no perfect life...small littlest thing will make it imperfect... when i think of the future when i was in primary school, i always think that everything will be the same...same family member, same friends and same me...when come to secondary life, what i think of the future are things changed right in front of us...and when we take things for granted everything will be gone in matter of seconds... when i reached polytechnics, it make me think what i am going to do if i have no jobs? what if i have diploma but no job?what will happen? thinking of the future will never ends because we do not know what life in the future hold for us... what we think now may not be the same 10 years down the road... changes will happen even though we doesn't want it...growing up from different family background will be turn every children differently...the kid may be from rich family but if the family nurture the kid like they are poor they will not turn out spoiled... i know whatever i blog now has no flow..haha...well type for fun..haha...that's all...

Saturday Morning....

Hello everyone!

On Saturday, Veni and I went to Pertapi Children's Home at near Kovan there...we sign up with Red Box Project, a project that was created by NTU or NUS student if not wrong. The idea of this project is you get a shoe box and put some thing that children around certain age may like example bears or car toys. So I find it interesting so I volunteered and pulled Veni in. I went to Pertapis Children's Home before with CSC. But on Saturday the experienced was so different... I get to talk to some of the residents there. It was a blessed for me to see them smile and laughing away. Then Veni and I cling to this boy Iman, 3 years old. VERY CUTE!! *gah* I keep carrying him around..haha...he is SO SWEET!!! Veni and I 'fought' over him because I want to carry him when take picture but Veni was faster then me and she took Iman * NOOOO!!!* haha...when the shoe box filled with some stationery and toys were given...I can see some of the residents' face lit up...they were happy to receive even it was just a simple gift like colour pencils...Then Iman got an Elmo & some stationery...He was cute... I guess the visit there were so meaningful and great! I am glad I can share with Veni! Hope I can go there soon!! Red Box Project was a great idea ... I do not regret...Not only that....today we played Captain Ball...Long time never played....as usual I dun really run..haha...Veni,we had a good and fruitful day right??Not Veni I mean Tabitha...ahah...that's what the residents called her...ahaha...Well I love the visit so MUCH!!!

Sometime...

sometime in life you have to accept what is in front of you as it is. if we keep on choosing for the something much more better, you end up losing everything. it reminds me of the card my bf gave to me. it was a nice story. sometime in life you have to be brave to face any problems in front of you.you can't keep running away from the problems. sometime in life all you need is a good support that can help you when you are down. when we are down all we need is a pleasant smile from your loved one.when you think that you can't keep running as you fall hard on the ground but there will be someone who will help you to continue the race even though it's walking. sometime in life we have to accept what we are lack of. we can change some of the imperfection you have but sometime the imperfection makes you perfect. sometime in life you will be in a situation where all hopes are gone and you were about to give up. but there will be a will in your heart that kept you going on. sometime in life all you need to be is yourself. showing the real you is much more appreciated rather than being someone that is not you. sometime in life you have to accept the truth even though it's hurt. sometime in life you are scared of what the future holds for you. sometime in life your friends can hurt you deeply like a knife stabbed in your heart.

in life there are always sadness & happiness. the sadness tells us that we have to keep moving on even though it's hard. the happiness tells us that we have conquer sadness.

sometime i felt dumped.sometime i felt stupid.sometime i felt giving up.sometime i felt disappointed.sometime i felt scared. sometime i felt sad.sometime i felt alone. because of people around me , i felt blessed every time i see them smile. this people helped me to get through my darkness days. this people help me a lot. i wish that one day i will be able to return favor to all of them. God send me this people to help me get through life. Thank You God. Thank You EVERYONE.

I want to say Thank You to everyone who has help me in a way or another.

Sincerely,

Salina

Random

Hey Everyone!How are all of you?So been some time I update my blog...Loads of things happen...So it is 2010 already!Time flies!Going to be 19...fooh...haha...Still long lah..hahaWell life has been ups and down...who doesn't have ups and down, right?I always wanted to be the one who pull people when they are falling...but sometime I need to be helped too..some of my classmate are so sweet and they helped me in my project...thanks everyone!owe u all!

forget about the sad part...

have you all ever wonder what if we have power?like superpower...if i were to have a power, i want to have...what power shld i have?ermm...maybe make people happy when they are sad...

or be like Power Ranger or Wizards Of Waverly Place!!!woohoo...have magic power!!COOL!hahaa..i am being SUPER RANDOM!

yeah...I want to have superpower!!

woohoo!!

If only my personal development can put this goal....cool sia...hahaha

well till here....

let me be happy....

i may stay quiet and do nothing.but when i am pushed to my limit i will stay there and do nothing because why?because i want to be the same happy girl and not the angry type anymore.it make me lose myself even the littlest thing.want to see that side of me ?i am a normal person with normal feeling.seriously...if i were to be very angry, i will just be like a girl with a knife on her hand.if i were to stay quiet, i will just be like a stone which does nothing even being kick. all i have to do is keep my own feeling and be like a stone.never do what others did to it.make me a beast, i will be one.make me a normal girl, i will be one.my heart may be burning just to save things because i like it that way. me being hurt it's fine but not people around me being hurt.being an angry person will end up hurting and burning yourself.i want to indulge in happy mode.box of happy chocolate inside.can someone give me a box of happy chocolate ? i need it....that's all...