all the picture taken from last friday until saturday...haha...my dear friends and my dear cuzzins!!haha...ok...

when everything went right

something went wrong

when everything looks sunny

it will rain after dat

when i thought the tide are down

there it goes up again

when i feel happy

it was saddened by someone

when i feel like talking

i guess i should just keep quiet

being alone maybe the best solution.

i noe that i have abondoned this blog a long time. bt cant help it. lah..
let's start with making new friends.
last wednesday CSC and Geod Council Club go hand in hand to go to marina barrage. i make new friends and meet new people.
i get to noe sri, ling hui, siew chin, derek and the last one i forgot.hee...3 from SEG 2 from SBM i guess..haha...
exchange msn...took FEW picture there...what to do me no camwhore...haa...
thursday and friday when totally the same. but friday got programming quiz. i sure dont score well...haha...ok...friday i went to my aunt house...i am going to go in my handphone got stolen.omg.sat down with syahidah and her cuzz with zamak.
den ard 4 plus zamak and syahidah went home.
i went to the cooking area and went to sleep.
i put my hp by my side where i dun think people notice.
on saturday morning, i realised my phone went missing...wtf.
den i wept for almost 10-15 minutes.the hp was only 2 weeks old...wth.i was so upset.den it became the topic of the days.hais...hahaha...oh my tian..what to do...hais...sad but cant help it...today is my cuzz wedding..ok lah till here...
need a bath and iron my baju kurung....ok bye!!

anything wrong?

i dunnoe what is wrong...

when is the last time i post 100% i am happy?

not sure...

when is the last time i was really happy?

not sure...

i feel like running away from this and keep the door to the world shut for a while...

alone..

alone in fighting everything...

alone in facing problem...

i hope this will be over soon...

soon..

please let me wake up from dis bad dream of mine...

let me see the sun rise...and have a wonderful day ahead...

tomorrow is still mystery to me...not only me but to all of us...

today was a bad day for me...
i cried in school because i was so fed up and sad..
during lunch...
my friends saw me crying..
i tried to control my ears but i can't...
i just can't..
veni bring me out to get a fresh air...
i told her what happen...
she console me...
thanks Veni for that!appreciate it loads!
i calmed down finally...
class went well...
after school walked to mrt with shou xian and veni...
we talked.haha
trained to jurong east...veni alight at sembawang den shou xian at cck...
left me alone.haha
den waited for adilah at library..
i tell u i can sleep in the library sia...
den i decided went home..
ard 6 plus adilah came to my house...
ate fried noodles with her...
den we played laptop..
watched video...
karaoke with her at youtube...hahahaha..
she does have a great voice...
den at 9.46 she went home...
smth funny happens...
my first brother scare us...
first he knocked on my window...i freaked out..
den went outside..
heard some scary noise...adilah said saw smth went pass...i went to the gate to see..den my bro suddenly appeared at the gate...we freaked out...
like wth...
den laughed...haha...
dat's for today!
i hope hings will calm down...
i cant stand people fighting or quarell...
i hate it!!
i really hope things will be ok!!
well dat it!
thank you for reading!!

i'm back...
now everything are better i guess...
veni keep asking me when i am blogging but i keep replying to her saying dat i dunnoe...
i really nid a topic to talk about if not will keep typing nonsense..haha..
well today had the presentation...it went well except dat i am too focus on reading the script.hais...so salina practice and try memorise the script...haha...the guys were formal but not all...i am not in formal attire..aiyo!!hee...i guess till here...bye!have a nice day!

today everyone like sad or emo...
i guess that's teenager..must have up and down...
even adult have up and down..
i hat when people sad or emo cause it made me feels so down together...
i want everyone to be happy..
all my friends and family to be happy..
please don't be emo..
i want them to cherish their days..
i want to see their beatiful smile..
i want that...
but i can't stop people from feeling down..
i will try my utmost best to bring a smile...
i feel bad when i didnt manage to bring a smile..
i felt i failed...
but maybe i shld let them be dat way..
they want to mend their problems...
sometime we can handle our problems alone but...
sometime we will never will...
we nid help or listening ears to hear our feeling...

i felt so useless right now...
really useless..
but no one in dis world is useless...
we are born to do something...
we are must cherished every second of our days...
i read this quote..." If u never laugh for a day, it is a waste"
i noe sometime we dun feel like laughing...
gosh...!
if i can be a clown to cheer people up, i will cause i want my friends to be happy..
i dun wan anyone to be sad...
dun be sad...
"Life a climb but the view is great"
that quote made me realise dat when climbing the mountain or whatever..
there will be a time where we will fall and feel disheartened...
but this is just a minor fall...
we will alwaes fall but we must make an effort to stand up and continue our journey...
our own journey...
life is like a webpage...
u must be creative and diligent to create a nice web page...
sometime the desktop or laptop will crash but we must find a way to solve the problems...
the sky is dark but u never noe whether it is going to rain or shine...
sometime all we nid to do is just wait and see...
the dark sky can mean many things...
it can turn sun shine cause the wind blew the cloud away...
or the rainfall may be pouring to Earth...
we nid to be brave...

it is okey to cry when u feel like crying...
dun stop dat's tears from falling cause it will drown u one day...
let it tears out...
cry is not a label dat u are weak but it's show u are brave...
u believe in yrself...
must belief in yourself noe matter what...
):

dear friends,
now one thing...if the sky is dark it can mean two things...but dun forget your umbrella..to protect u...protect u from the rain...believe in yourself..problem are not to bring u down but to make u strong..stronger to face the upcoming problems or hurdle...i can be yr listening ears if u need it...once my friends, alwaes my friends...smile...

till here my friends....thanks for reading my humble blog...

i am the type who like to bottle up my own feeling...
seriously i am...i hate being angry but i can't run away from dat feeling...
i can never run..and i hate that feeling...
because whenever i am angry i tend to bottle up and end up with a cry or smth...
sometime i feel like shouting whenever i am angry...
i want to expressed my own feeling i want to say it out loud but i can't
hard to do it with my family..really hard because i never show my real emotion..
i cover up smile when i am angry or sad...
i will cry when i am sad or angry...
i dunnoe why i am not out spoken when my anger is tested...i jus dunnoe why..
but i guess have advantage of it...
but i feel like torturing myself...
i hate that ugly feeling...
i hate so much...
but humans can't run from being angry,sad or whatever lah...
i want to express bt i stop myself from doing it...
i shall stop here...no point...