missing u dad :'(

sad what happen to Japan.damn sad.to see video and picture from the net regarding the quake and tsunami.hope all japan citizen are strong to face this hardship.putting aside that. i in year 3. meaning separation. currently i am doing fypj. 2 are doing IPP. the day before FYPJ start, i actually cried when i was thinking about separating with DIT0901.blame to the song i was listening that day which i am listening right now. hannah montana/miley cyrus, I'll Always Remember you. when come to think separating with the crazy class i cant help myself not to cry.because they really meant something to me. apart from my mom,family and my close friends.they really meant to me. they made me smile and laugh when i am sad.they made me cry because i laughed so much. they are like my brother and sister. they really meant something to me. they do. DIT0901 may have lack of jokers compared to other class but we are always joking ard as a class.fooling ard as a class and does lamest thing as a class.i am lying if i said they are the prefect class . we had our fights. we had our disagreement. the fights were small but we still have it.they make me feel loved.i cant help but smile when i think of the crazy stun they put up. random acts and lamest to the core jokes we had. i know we will meet each other but not being with them made me sad.i am saying like i am graduating tmr like that. i love u.

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how is everyone?i am fine i guess...i know i owe alot of update..but i am lazy..haha...shall make it short i guess! haha...

Hello Everyone! (:

i don't understand why some children are so IGNORANT of their parent's feeling...seriously..u are so ignorant of your other's feeling and care about other people mother. I serious dun understand you...seriously.. u made me speechless sometime not that you are one great man but you are one f-ing irritating man...your mom even apologize to you but you just replied by saying "Mmm"..wth was that? what you are trying to prove here? your mom been living with me like 10 years and my mom put up with her A LOT... no matter what she done she is your mother, the one that gave birth to you... you may have a bad experience whatsoever but no matter what she is your mother. during hari raya you dun even visit her? so you have a new family..whatever lah...it irritates me... no one can stop you but yourself. it bugs me so much because you are bringing up the past that your spouse are always the one been bringing your mom to the hospital and your spouse are the one cooking for her... what about my mom and me and my family? we let her go to the hospital herself?when she is sick we asked her to go hospital herself?when she has an appointment with doctor we let her go by herself?and we let her starve? think lah... use your brain and think.. how i wish that i can give you a piece of my mind. seriously...and oh yeah you were saying that i am big sized who would want me?did i asked your money to feed me? did i? gosh! i may sound heartless here but this is what i feel. this is what i think you should realize before she is gone. everyone will have leave this world.you brought up all the unfairness that happen to you...why don't my family brought up the past too? the reason behind it because we are just human being that will make mistake.. because we know that sincerity matter than just pretense...if one day, you mention about my body weight or whatsoever, believe me i will just give you piece of my mind. i am happy with myself and i don't bother anyone.

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hope all of you are fine (:

so shall update... i was reading my old post...from Poly Year 1 till now...haha...how much I grew by just reading the post itself..how much i found myself through life...haha...cool isn't it...whenever we are at that point of time, we will not take seriously that things can have an effect on us... i always like that...reading all the entry i had regarding my CCA...i realize that i really enjoyed it because seeing smiles from the person i help make me feel warmth..even the BDD made me feel that sometime people can touched us in a way or another.. i love that feeling... the thought of it I love/enjoy helping others..but i dunnoe why i lost all the motivation to do that again..maybe because i am part of the planning....i guess i hate planning things...i just like to see people planning not getting involve in it..can i just give up my position and be a normal member? can i? like give up all of this? i feel irritated and sad at the same time... Veni always told me why must i give up now just because of some people, she added that I enjoyed helping so dun stop doing it. Yeah, I love helping and seeing smile on their faces make me feel that I have done smth... can i just leave my position now and help when i am needed?I dun really care of the position I hold in my CCA because it is just a position.GOSH! hate it when I want to give up something...oh yeah Veni and I had a chat back then.... "You have a choice to jump down or look at the beautiful view when you are standing at the edge of the cliff" this was what Veni said...I chose to look at the beautiful view because something is holding me down to the ground... (:

nice isn't it? haha... hope I will enjoy what I do(: that is helping others. (:

Shall stop talking about this... (: Shall watch my K-Drama (:

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Long time never blog...So how is everyone...?And Selamat Hari Raya!! I like dunnoe what to update lah...errmmmm...let me think?i still dunnoe...oh yeah did I tell you that i am liking B2ST! haha....a few weeks ago I everyday watch their video at Youtube...haha...obsessed...shall use the word obsess!hahaha...I like YoSeob!gah!!he is cute and has a very soothing voice to listen too....haha....oh yeah!! I have a new niece!Nur Alisha Bte Muhammad Razid...so shall end here...

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Hello readers! How are all of you? Hope everyone fine! Blissful with smile! What the hell am I talking about?I do not wish to update a very emo entry but I just can't help it. Yesterday while I was writing notes for OOAD modules, I was looking at my table. I was glancing at the picture that was taken 9 years ago. The picture of my mom,my late father and me. The three of us were hugging and smiling. That day was Hari Raya. I glanced at my late father's picture for a few seconds. Suddenly, I was overwhelmed with my own feeling. I always missed his laughter and jokes.Whenever someone ask about, " Your father work as what?" , I will stop and think. What should I say? I reluctantly said that he passed away. I felt sad that I have to said that. Yes I know I shall not be stupid and selfish! In this entire whole world not only me without a father. I was considered lucky enough to know my father. I still remember my first raya without my father, back in 2006. When I heard the "takbir" , I cried unknowingly. Tears rolled down my cheeks. I could not stop crying.It was always my father who make me angry and happy at the same time. He dotes on me without me realizing.Never dd I aspect to lose my father. Once, my mum said that my late father has this worry which was whether will he get to see me grow up to be a woman. When she mention that I felt sad.But I know he is with me right now. He is always with me because I hold his memories in my heart all along. I just wish that I could hug him and kiss him right now. I was not a good daughter.

I guess I should stop. I am sorry. Well I shall smile more now (: