Mom

Today I went to Botanical Garden with my mum...It is a trip organised by MKAC..well what I did was walk around and read book...haha..I was like thinking so the drama sia..den what I imagined was I am waiting for my prince charming..haha...it was just so quiet and very calming...so after almost about an hour , my mum called said the thing going to end so I went there...They were doing this expression your love to your loved one...haha...some from couple and children to parent and parent to children...haha... got one parent to children was SO TOUCHING i tell you...and as u guessed i cried... :( it was so touching...i dun want to elaborate on expression because i forgot..haha... if i were to stay there , i will also write for my mother... i know she will not read this blog...but this is how i felt...here goes...

Dear Mom,

I am glad that I have you as my mother. Never did i regret to have you as my mother even though you are sick..I still remember when I was in Primary 4 , you were diagnosed with Kidney failure and I cried. It was because at that moment I thought I am going to lose you forever... But nevertheless, you are here. You are strong...I still remember one of our family member said that you are going to die. How I wish I can just punch the person in the face. Seeing you go through the hardships, dialysis after dialysis and operation after operation... I am so sad but I told myself at that moment I must be strong for you. You were as strong as the Great Wall of China...Never did I see you cry or saying that you want to give up your life.. In 2006, when Father passed away, I was so upset. You did cried so hard.And after that moment I never see you cry. You were strong. Now, I only have you and brothers. You lift me up when I am so down. When I was scolded by brothers, you were there and console me even it was by words it was by the action. You work and never did you say that you blamed anyone. You always said never do bad things to others even though they did bad to us. Though I never say I Love You that often , but I love you very much... Thank you mum for being the candle in my darkest days.

Sincerely,

Salina

That will be my expression. haha...

i keep thinking what if one day, my world turn upside down...upside down meaning that...i become thin & i come from a rich family....well i know is so not real..haha...seriously...what if that happen?will i still be the same Salina as now and will my friends be like what I have now?will my family be the same? more happy or worse? when i see teenager who get what they want and are popular among people, it make me think what if their world is turned upside down? haha...well I am grateful with what I have.. There are no perfect life...small littlest thing will make it imperfect... when i think of the future when i was in primary school, i always think that everything will be the same...same family member, same friends and same me...when come to secondary life, what i think of the future are things changed right in front of us...and when we take things for granted everything will be gone in matter of seconds... when i reached polytechnics, it make me think what i am going to do if i have no jobs? what if i have diploma but no job?what will happen? thinking of the future will never ends because we do not know what life in the future hold for us... what we think now may not be the same 10 years down the road... changes will happen even though we doesn't want it...growing up from different family background will be turn every children differently...the kid may be from rich family but if the family nurture the kid like they are poor they will not turn out spoiled... i know whatever i blog now has no flow..haha...well type for fun..haha...that's all...

Saturday Morning....

Hello everyone!

On Saturday, Veni and I went to Pertapi Children's Home at near Kovan there...we sign up with Red Box Project, a project that was created by NTU or NUS student if not wrong. The idea of this project is you get a shoe box and put some thing that children around certain age may like example bears or car toys. So I find it interesting so I volunteered and pulled Veni in. I went to Pertapis Children's Home before with CSC. But on Saturday the experienced was so different... I get to talk to some of the residents there. It was a blessed for me to see them smile and laughing away. Then Veni and I cling to this boy Iman, 3 years old. VERY CUTE!! *gah* I keep carrying him around..haha...he is SO SWEET!!! Veni and I 'fought' over him because I want to carry him when take picture but Veni was faster then me and she took Iman * NOOOO!!!* haha...when the shoe box filled with some stationery and toys were given...I can see some of the residents' face lit up...they were happy to receive even it was just a simple gift like colour pencils...Then Iman got an Elmo & some stationery...He was cute... I guess the visit there were so meaningful and great! I am glad I can share with Veni! Hope I can go there soon!! Red Box Project was a great idea ... I do not regret...Not only that....today we played Captain Ball...Long time never played....as usual I dun really run..haha...Veni,we had a good and fruitful day right??Not Veni I mean Tabitha...ahah...that's what the residents called her...ahaha...Well I love the visit so MUCH!!!